Nothing lasts forever. Seems like common sense, right? Then, why are we somehow surprised when a relationship ends or a job ends or a dog dies? I suppose it’s because God made us emotional beings and we would not be human if we did not experience emotions of sadness or anger when we lose something we love. I guess that is the beauty of life. The word that is coming to mind right now is acceptance. We must accept these beginnings and endings in order to fullly live our lives or else we will remain paralyzed by our own inability to move on.
Nothing lasts forever. Instead of interpreting that as negative, let’s make the choice to let it free us.
“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.” Maria Robinson
Tomorrow, I am closing one door and opening another. Tomorrow, I begin a new chapter in my life. Tomorrow, I say goodbye to old friends and say hello to new ones.
Tomorrow, I am moving to a new state, a new home, and a new job. If you’ve read some of my past posts, you may have noticed a pattern of topics about ‘change’ or variations of it. I knew in my gut that I needed a change in my life; I just didn’t know what kind of change I needed or wanted. I have been praying for months for God to give me clarity and help me to make the right decisions to keep me on the path he has laid out for me. As always, He has answered my prayers.
The act of moving is a complex one. Half of me feels this forward momentum, positive spirit, and excitement about the move, while the other half is holding on tightly and not wanting to let go of the people in my life here. And then, I realize that I don’t have to let go of them because they will always be with me. This frees up more space for positive light.
This entire experience proves to me once again that life happens on God’s time and he surely knows better than I do what is best for me. Six months ago, I would not have been ready for the new life that lies ahead of me tomorrow. But, today I am ready. Of course I still have fears and insecurities about the whole thing, but I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t feel some of that. The fact is that I have a strong enough spiritual foundation to go anywhere and do anything, and the only real attachment/responsibility I have is to my two dogs and ‘home’ for them is wherever I am. So, now is the time to get out of my comfort zone and live my life, and I’m taking everyone along with me for the ride!
You may have noticed, that Tracey’s Truth has a new look. The banner picture of the ocean at the top of the page is actually a picture that I took on the beach in North Carolina. Total serenity! I thought it was time for a little change, a new look, something to inject some fresh inspiration into my writing. I’ve been completely uninspired lately, as you can see by the major lapse in time since my last post. The tedious monotony of my corporate gig has been sucking my creative well dry. It’s got me thinking about change.
The first thing that comes to mind when I hear “change” is the transformation I went through 2 and 1/2 years ago. Changing my lifestyle, my city, my friends, my attitude, my thinking, my behaviors, basically everything. Today, however, I’m thinking about all of the changes that are going on at work. Work…boring, I know. But, I’ve realized how comfortable I’ve become in my work environment, the people in it, my commute, my daily responsibilities, etc. Dare I say I’ve become complacent? God must have noticed because now everything is different. Half of the office was laid off, my closest co-workers are no longer there (the ones who make the day enjoyable), and I’m left asking myself what I’m going to do.
Changing jobs is never easy, let alone changing careers. Do you ever ask yourself, do I really want to be doing THIS for the rest of my life? At first, the thought of making a career change sounds exciting and energizing, but then when I actually have to narrow down what that would look like and what it would require, I get an anxiety attack. I read numerous blogs and articles about people who have made the leap into a new, more fulfilling career doing what they love, and I’m always amazed by it. It seems so far from my reality. The numerous voices in my head tell me that it’s impossible FOR ME and that I can’t do it. Maybe they could do it, but they’re different from me.
The other voices in my head tell me that the grass is always greener and that I’m lucky to have a job that pays the bills. Why would I want to rock the boat? But, doesn’t that sound so boring? We have one life on this planet and we should dare to dream and push the boundaries of what confines us. And it sounds like that would take a lot of effort. That’s just my Monday exhaustion talking. I don’t know what it would take for me to make this kind of change. All I can do right now is stay open to the possibility that anything is possible…